Cancer is a horrible disease. One that sneaks up on you when you least expect it. Something that comes when you least expect it. And that affects the people that least deserve it. At least in my eyes, that is what happened to us. In the world of not being fair, this just takes the cake.
April 21st, we received the news that my Dad has stage 4 metastatic pancreatic adenocarcinoma. To hear the doctors tell us it was terminal was hard to hear. The “It’s not fair,” and “he’s too young,” were said often. How does this happen? The emotions running through me were overwhelming.
In the midst of trying to get stable on my medicine again, my family was dropped a bombshell. Not only am I struggling back to stability, I can only imagine the emotions my father is feeling. How do you swallow that pill? Knowing that your time is limited.
As so many emotions flooded my family, I couldn’t help but feel anger. Why is this happening to us? It isn’t fair. And now I have to watch my dad go on this journey. To start chemo and radiation. Be there for my dad and step mom and my children. How do you be the strong one when all you want is to break down?
Thankfully I have a strong support system, between my boyfriend and my mom. Plus I also go to therapy twice a month. Together with my medicine, and my support system I have been handling decently well. As hard as it is watching my dad's health fail, I am cherishing the time I have.
Encouraging more time and memories for my children. Supporting and encouraging my dad through chemo. We have good days and bad days. But as a family we are making it through. Taking each day, one day at a time. Slowly we have come together and are becoming stronger.
Life isn’t fair, and some days are hard. But together we are rising above. Working together to be there for each other. Together we will get through this. One day at a time.
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